Actually, I just wanted to share my beliefs on the subject. I stress that this is purely my perspective, and that even with my understanding, experience, and knowledge of psychedlics, as with anything else, you decide what is true for you. If my belief helps clearify your own idea of what tripping is and why you do it, then by all means believe what you want. For this is all true to me, but that is within my life and experience. It would be unfair for me to suggest that you believe what I believe, for as I said, my life dictates what is true for me, as could yours for you.



From when I was 16 until this last year I had used LSD and mushrooms many many times for many different reasons. At first it was exploration, I felt like the world was new, and when I took LSD all that was became new again. It felt as if I was a child again, and I knew in my heart that the amazement and wonder you experience during a trip was something that was already inside of me, waiting to be free.

I came to many realizations during this period, but it was not until my motivations for taking trips had turned into escape that I was able to comprehend the real purpose and use for these drugs. It wasn't until I became self destructive that I discovered the healing properties of LSD. I had not had a simple happy childhood, and I sought any drugs as a mean of release and escape from all that was. Of course I found it.

I had one of those cataclysmic trips inwhich I found myself trying to commit suicide with my own bare hands, Life took on the appearance of a movie, inwhich the world was mocking me. I ended up in jail, so beaten up by my own hands I could barely breathe, from an outward appearance it was the worst thing ever. Lucky for me the nature of LSD is in bringing the unconscious forward, and it was because of this that I did not believe my trip was "bad".

That is the first aspect of the solution that psychedlics offer, insight into the polarities we experience in life. Good and bad took on a new meaning when I came down a few days later, sitting in a jail cell a hundred miles from home. Thinking of it now that was really the start of my discovery as to what is true and real for me. Of course we can assume it started before I was born, knowing how things are so connected and interdependant on everything else. But from the perspective of what experience triggered a line of thinking in my life, this would of been it.

Let me get to the core of the solutions before I go any further into my experience and all the other little bits of what makes this all true for me. I know there has been a great deal of research, and if you looked around good enough you could come up with a pretty good idea as to what the benefits and disadvantages are of tripping. Until recently I thought everything I had read and experience gave me a rock hard perception as to what psychedelics meant to me, but there was a flaw.

The flaw was that what I knew of psychedelics was only partly from experience. Most of what I believed was true was just a collaboration of other information I had gathered. Each person has a different understanding of what trips might do, and for those who have never tried any all they know is the information they can read. But what truth does that hold?

When I finally came to a point that I lost my own ability to grasp "reality" I was rocketed into a new world of understanding. That is the key solution that I see in psychedelics. They make available that which is shielded by the mind. That is not to say they are nessecery to reach this point, just that with enough of certain type of hallucinagen it is unavoidable. With society, or american culture atleast, it is so difficult to get beyond what is told to us. All of that information, other peoples experiences, beliefs, ideas... we get no option as to what we choose to believe. Very few can defy it entirely, and with good reason of course.

ugh, I'll have to finish this later..